Good Friday.

So, I was raised Roman Catholic. I had to work today. I feel guilty. However, I’ll be spending all weekend with family and friends. No “Hollow chocolate rabbit jello shots” or anything like that. I have to make macaroni salad. 2 kinds. 1 with and 1 without tuna in it. I am planning a very carefully orchestrated weekend. I hope your weekend goes without a hitch!!

Happy Easter!

Shine On,

Angi

9 pounds

Woke up around 4 a.m. this morning. Sleeping on my stomach, face in my pillow & cat centered perfectly between my shoulder blades. That little 9 pound ball of fluff has never felt so heavy. Ever. Finally get him to jump down and went back to sleep, thankful that it wasn’t the 12 pound cat. Woke again to my alarm clock and the sound of a cat’s bell flying across the house, up the stairs and landing on me. Again. He does his prancing about, shoving his little head under my hand for scratching between the ears. Holy moly, I wish I was as awake as Colby is in the morning. Finally staggered downstairs, consumed my coffee and bore a slight resemblence to the energy output of my cat. That little creature makes me shake my head in amusement on a daily basis. I’m really glad we found him.

Shine On!

Angi

late night pondering.

Here we are again. Me and You. And I’m sitting here staring at this screen, wondering what to put down that isn’t totally insane. And I’m realizing I’m way too overtired to do this. I hope I sleep thru the night. I have been arguing with my stomach lately. It likes to wake me with an acid bath. So friendly. Thank GOD for wintergreen Tums!!!!!! I keep them on my bedside. And a box of store-brand Alka-Seltzer in the bathroom. My friends. I’d love to dump them, but they keep me functional. It’s either that or surgery. So I’ll stick with my friends for a little while longer. I went to the open house for the new Yoga studio that will be opening soon. It’s beautiful!! All of my favorite colors!! I’m SO VERY SUPER EXCITED to have the privilege of practicing the poses in this glorious setting!! I really can’t wait to get started. I really need to do this for my body. I’m not an exercise person. I can’t motivate for it. Running is out of the question unless I want a couple of black eyes. Walking is really a seasonal thing and since we have 9 months of “non-walking weather”, it’s really not a practical solution. Lifting heavy objects is what has left me arguing with my stomach & now we’ve come full circle. Maybe it’s just time to go sleep. Cross your fingers for me.

Shine On!

Angi

Accidental alarm, cats & too much sunshine.

So I got distracted last night when adjusting my alarms for this morning, which means one was stil set for 7:00am. yep. It went off this morning. I panicked b/c Hubby was still sleeping & I thought he was supposed to be going to work. He tells me “it’s Saturday.” OH! ok. back to sleep. Almost. About 10 min after the alarm & that initial adrenaline rush, I’m just about out and the younger cat, Colby, jumps onto the bed & proceeds to walk from my feet up my body to my shoulder. Then he makes his little “trill” noise that I interpret as “you awake?” so I rub his head and he walks back down to my feet. ok, NOW I can go back to sleep. Almost. 5 min later, here comes Colby again. Thump (onto bed), quickly walking & wobbling up my side (because I’m sleeping on my side) for another trill, pat on the head and then leap off the bed. THUMP *jinglejingle*. 20 min later, I wake up to both bells merrily jingling under the bed and lots of “paw thumping the floor” sounds. So I listen trying to decide if Shadow is teaching Colby a lesson or if they are playing tag. Shadow makes a dash for the door, Colby is silent, then goes pouncing after him. Well, tag it is. Aaannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnddd then they come back in the bedroom & shoot under the bed. *jingle jingle jingle jingle thump thump jingle jingle thump jingle* back out the door. OKay, I’ve had enough. They hear me get out of bed so they split. Shadow jingles his way downstairs and Colby hid in another bedroom. I shoo Colby to the stairway & try to close the door at the top of the stairs. The old, wooden door that changed size again due to humidity and somewhere along the top it’s sticking and won’t close. Crap. Close the bedroom door that won’t latch for the same damn reason the other one won’t close. Jam a door stop under the corner and climb back in bed. I still have an hour before the alarm is SUPPOSED to go off. And here comes Shadow again. At 17, he’s learned a trick or two. Like how to squeak the paint on the door with his claws in a manner that shoots right thru my head and lifts me 6 inches off the bed before I’m barely awake. *Son of a … no. I can ignore this. go back to sleep* 2 more squeaks. So then he “knocks” on the door. He has discovered he doesn’t always have to squeak his claws. He can rattle his paw against the door and when the claws hit, it sounds like he is knocking. So he knocks 3 or 4 times, as he lets out a loud, pitiful “MRROOOOOWWWWW” with each knock. Noise level might wake Hubby, but he could sleep thru anything. Shadow decides to push on the door. He also learned (before we got him at age 3) how to push things around with his nose. He was forever dumping his water until we stuck it in a corner and put a strap in place to keep him from pulling it out. Anyways. He pushed the door. It moves maybe a sixteenth of an inch because of the door stop. So he pushes again. Now he can see thru the crack in the door, but there’s nothing to see. So he starts his “MRROOOOOOWWWW” thing again. By now it’s 9:05. I’m annoyed. I’m not getting back to sleep. Get up, hit the on button for the coffee pot on the way to the bathroom. Install my vision accessories. (contacts) LOL! Let Shadow out (because it “must be really nice out since there’s so MUCH sunshine mom!! I really need to go out NOW!!!), throw some bread in the toaster, it pops, pour my coffee, let Shadow back in (“It’s really cold out there mom. Why didn’t you tell me it’s only 14 degrees? I never made it off the porch”), and now the cats are silent in the house. Go. Figure. However, I have my coffee & toast. It’s sunny with the promise of a changing season soon to be upon us. I’m sooo tired of snow. We got several more inches last night after most everything had melted away. I thought & had hoped we’d finally made it to mud season. Alas, not yet. Soon, though. Very soon. Have a great weekend!

Shine On!

Angi

Body in rebellion.

yes, I did it again. Not sure how, not sure when, but I managed to distress my Sliding Hiatal Hernia. oh, the JOY. It has decided to rebel against me yet again. I feel my heartbeat in my abdomen, my throat has a ghostly gagging sensation, my body hurts everywhere and then there’s the phlegm. Nobody ever mentions the phlegm. yuck. OH yeah. And did you know it gets harder to breathe when half of your stomach is hanging out between your lungs? c’mon Tummy!! Drop back to where you belong!! <overhead stretch> nope. not yet. I’ll keep trying. In the meantime, I think I want a salad for lunch. Just a little one. I skipped my oatmeal this morning. No room for it AND my coffee. Just one cup of coffee, but that’s all that fits in HALF my tummy. Yes, I’m sure you are thinking “why don’t you get it fixed?”. Well, I’ve already done that once. Laproscopically. So now to fix, the surgeon says “We’ll have to open you up this time. Can’t do it laproscopically again.” So I’m putting off as long as I possibly can. Guess I’m bringing lemon water today. It helps clear out the phlegm. Ridiculous word for a crappy sensation. Well, off to work I go. Have fun folks!!

Shine On!

Angi

Wednesday, shmesday. bleh.

So I was peacefully sleeping away when I was rudely awakened at 2am. BLAM! my eyes snapped open as if the house had just been hit by a large truck. ugh. No good. Toss & turn, get another moment of wide-eyed but more like a pond ripple, then closed my eyes again and passed right back out. THEN my older cat decides 5 am is the perfect time to march across my pillow, stop, bite my hair & pull. yes. He pulled my hair. When the hell did he figure that out??? friggin cat. I scoot over a couple of inches & he marches down the side of the bed to sleep next to my knees. Apparently, he felt he didn’t have a wide enough walk way or something. He stayed for a total of FIVE minutes. Then he jumps off the bed, sounding like a large, full bookbag, as he hits the ground “KERFLUMP, jingle jingle”. Yes, he has a bell on his collar so we can keep track of where he is. In fact, both cats have bells. More so we could keep track of where the little one was, but all’s fair when playing cat games. Although, I simultaneously felt really guilty and highly amused when the older cat hissed at his own bell once. Good times. 🙂 Have a lovely rest of your week. I have to figure out what’s next in mine.

Shine On!

Angi

Woke up, check.

Had my cup of coffee, check.

it’s Tuesday, check.

Escaped a 3am start due to unforeseen circumstances, beyond my control. Check.

<yawn> check.

annnnndddd the brain’s engine just turned over. Off to the races again.

8 million nagging reasons to worry. check.

1 loud reasonable reason to silence the 8 million…

waiting…

no check.

damn.

Yes, it is Monday.

So last night, I didn’t fall asleep until about 3am and even then, I wasn’t “out”. Up at 7 so I can get my brain in gear for the week. Which is also a nightmare as I have to start work at 3am for Tuesday. Maybe being awake so late last night will help me go to sleep early tonight for my extra early morning. Yay for 24 hr stores. <yawn> but at least I’ll have my last project ticket done. Unless something else starts today. Have a great week folks!

Shine On!

Angi

Resonance & Reverberations

Who knew? 🙂

Once in a while, there is a tiny sound. Like a dime being dropped on a carpeted floor. A bird chirp. A hamster cough. And it will reverberate and then echo and return, so it’s a little bit louder. And then travel away & come back again. Louder, stronger. And keeps repeating until you feel like you are crouched on the floor, clutching your head, screaming & still can’t hear yourself. Everything is drowned out except that note. That ping. That Resonance. How do you keep from drowning in it? Absorbing it? Owning it? How do you push it away when it’s so much a part of you? “Let the wave pass thru. Only you will remain.” But how to do that when you are in the ocean without a surf board and it’s a 20 foot wave crashing over you?

My solution? I went to sleep. Tomorrow is always another day. A new start. Perspective.

*mental note*- go to sleep before midnight.

Happy Spring!

So I just want to wish all of you who follow Nature, a very Happy Spring! We are in the second half (night) of the Equinox. May the next 6 months be all  you deserve! 🙂 I’m finding with the new spring, is a new wellspring of energy! I’m hoping to put it to good use. I bought my punchcard for the Yoga classes I’m going to begin taking soon. I think I’ve even found the right class. I was worrying about that. It’s only offered once/week on Sunday nights. However, there is a similar class on Tues & Thur nights. I have to figure out what my budget can handle. Which means we need our FREAKING WATER BILL. ugh. If I don’t have it by the next village board meeting, I will be attending and I will start demanding some answers. We were supposed to have it by mid-Feb. I’ve been saving since Jan 1 for this coming bill. I have things to do that require knowing how much money I actually have to spend on them. Like Yoga. 😛 So frustrating. But hey. Have a fantastic weekend & give your loved ones an extra hug. We could all use one.

Shine On!

Angi